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 laala DayarI
“mammaI maaOsaI BaI @yaa kOisayaao bajaatI qaIĆ"
" nahIM¸ harmaaoinayama…"
" maaOsaI ko BaI maoro jaOsao baala qaoĆ"
"bahut lambao…GauTnaaoM tk…" ł maoro mana maoM vah dRSya ]Bar Aayaa¸ jaba papa nao ]sakI maRt doh kao gaaod maoM ]zayaa qaa AaOr lambaI dao caaoiTyaaM naIcao laTk Aa[- qaIM.´
maOM ivacailat hao gayaI.
" maaOsaI maorI jaOsaI qaI naa¸ AcCa gaatI qaI¸ Ganao baala¸ Dak- ka^mplao@SanaŃ tBaI tao Aap khtI hao¸ maorI SaOlajaa hO tUŃ tba maOM AapkI baD,I bahna qaI… Aba maOM CaoTI hUĐ."
"nahIM ro tU tao gaaorI hO. ]saka rMga tao Syaamala qaa…camacamaata Syaamala…isataraoM kI CaMva vaalaI naIlaI JaaM[- maartI AaQao caaMd kI rat saa." khkr ApnaI dsa vaYaI-yaa baoTI kao AMk maoM Bar laotI maOM. vah
maorI namaI sao iJalaimalaatIM AaMKoM doKtI AaOr caup hao jaatI.
hOrana hUи [tnaa ilaKa…]sa pr ek kivata tk na ilaKIŃ hmaoSaa tao mana maoM rhI vah ]dasa mauskana ilayao. caupcaapŃ mauJao doKto hue. kOsao ilaKtIŃ kao[- BaI tao ]saka naama tk nahIM laota qaa Gar maoM. mammaI
caupcaap pUjaa krko ]sakI barsaI ko idna Apnao skUla kI garIba laD,kI kao kpD,o – iktabaoM idlaa dotI qaIM.
kOsao naama laoto hma sabaĆ ek hI zNDI saI Aaga maoM jalato Aayao hOM Aba tk. ]sa naama sao jauD,o savaala BaI tao bahut qao. saMsaar nao pUCo vaao Alaga¸ mana
jaao krta qaa vaao AlagaŃ
Apnao baccaaoM tk kao tao Aba jaakr batayaa hO. vah BaI basa ]tnaa hI ijatnaa maaohk qaa‚ Dravanaa‚ BaIYaNa htaSaa sao Bara saba iCpa ilayaa.
" mammaI‚ maaOsaI kao @yaa huAa qaaĆ"
" baImaar hao ga[- qaIM." baccao @yaa [tnao pr zhr jaatoĆ
" kOsaoĆ @yaaĆ"
" kuC saIivayar [nafO@Sana qaa… baahr kuC Ka pI Aa[- qaI."
" ]ilTyaaM … fUD pa^yaja,inaMgaĆ hmanao hayajaIna kI bauk maoM pZ,a qaa. baahr kBaI nahIM Kanaa caaihyao."
" haĐ."
" e maaOsaI kI baat mat kr mammaI ]dasa hao jaatI hO." baD,I CaoTI kao samaJaatI.
p`Sna nahIM marto … Apnao pUro tIKopna ko saaqa laaogaaoM ko manaaoM maoM ]gao rhto hOM. ijanhoM ]KaD, kr vao iksaI kao BaI cauBaa laoto hOM. SaadI kI baat
calaI qaI tao… saasa nao mammaI ka mana kuroda qaa.
"saunaa bahnajaI¸ AapkI [sa laD,kI sao baD,I… "mammaI nao kOsao saMBaalaa yao vao hI jaanaoM. SaadI tya hao gayaI qaI pr yah p`Sna ija,nda rha…
mauMh idKa[- ko va@t tao yah p`Sna cauBaaoyaa gayaa hI. baad maoM BaI yada – kda bahU kI pZ,a[- – saundrta – sauGara[- ko taOla ko dUsaro plaD,o pr rKo jaanao
maoM yah [stomaala huAa.
"@yaaoM @yaa huAa qaa tumharI bahna kaoĆ"
" batayaa tao qaa Aapkao… sTaova fT gayaa qaa."
" eM| eosao kOsaoĆ"
" j,yaada pMp lagaa idyaa qaa."
" gaOsa nahIM qaIŃ"
" nahIM. tba rajasqaana ko CaoTo ksbaaoM tk gaOsa eojaonsaI nahIM phuMcaI qaI."
" AcCa|||. hmanao tao kuC AaOr hI saunaI qaI."
maOM Aaht haokr vahaM sao hT jaatI. yaa pitdova hI ApnaI maaM kao AaMK idKa doto yaa Taokto. Andr Aakr pUCto “ mammaI kI baataoM ka baura mat maananaa. doKao naa¸ tuma laaoga ApnaI jaait – samaaja sao dUr vahaM
rajasqaana maoM rho ifr BaI yah badnaamaI sabamaoM fOla gayaI. mauJasao BaI laaoga pUCto hOM. vaOsao huAa @yaa qaaĆ”
“ batayaa na….”
"nahIM vajah @yaa rhI haogaI."
" iksakIĆ"
" Aa%mah%yaa kI."
" maOMnao kha vah Aa%mah%yaa nahIM qaI." Jallaa ga[- qaI maOM.
"AcCa… maOM tumhoM naIcaa nahIM idKa rha… basa hma baat kr rho hOM. Aa%mah%yaa BaI tao hao saktI hO. ]mar hI kuC eosaI qaI. kuC hao gayaa hao… ]sa ]mar kI baccaI kao @yaa samaJa ik Aba @yaa ikyaa jaayao. Aaja kI
laD,ikyaaM tao ifr BaI smaaT- hOM. ip`ka^Sana …"
"tumharI bahna haotI tao tuma [saI trh kI baatoM krtoĆ baaolaaoĆ" maOM nao kMQao pr rKa haqa JaTk idyaa. saaqa hI JaUzI sahanauBaUit BaI JaTk dI.
ifr saalaaoM baad Aaja BaI vahI —
" @yaa kr rhI haoĆ"
"KIr banaa rhI qaI."
" iksailayaoĆ"
" basa yaUM hI…"
" yao skUla yauinafa^ma- AaOr iktabaoM…"
"Aaja 12 navambar hO…"
"Aaoh…"
" …"
"pr mannaao ¸ tuma CaoTI hao¸ vah baD,I bahna qaI tumharI. tuma nahIM¸ tumharo maata – ipta¸ Baa[- ka krnaa huAa yah saba tao."
" saca khUM … tao ijasa ]ma` maoM vah calaI gayaI. tba vah 17 saala kI qaI. maOM Aaja 36 kI hUи mauJao tao vah Aba CaoTI hI lagatI hO. ]sakI Civa vaOsaI hI hO mana maoM skT- blaa]ja,¸ CaoTa Ta^p AaOr
baolabaa^Tma phnanao vaalaI kma]ma`¸ ]dasa AaMKaoM vaalaI SaOlajaa. ijasao naItU isaMh – ?iYa kpUr kI iflmaoM bahut psand qaIM. ” maorI AaMKoM trla hao jaatIM.
"calaao ijasa baat maoM tumhara sauK…"
" vaOsao eosaa @yaaoM kr baOzI vah¸ Aaja tao iktnao ]paya hOM¸ gaBa-Paat kranao ko. Aba tao gaaoilayaaM tk Aa ga[- hOM.”
"tumasao iksanao kha ik …Ć"
"laaogaaoM nao."
"mauJasao j,yaada laaogaaoM pr ivaSvaasa hOĆ "
mauJao mammaI kI baat yaad Aa rhI hO.
mannaao¸ rasto Bar embaulaonsa maoM khtI rhI “ papa bacaa laao¸ maOM marnaa nahIM caahtI. maOM Agalao saala AaT-\sa laokr pZ,UMgaI AaOr pasa hao jaa}MgaI.”
Aba maOM [na baataoM pr JallaatI nahIM. basa Baro hue Gaava ifr hro hao jaato hOM.
pUra idna basa jaanao iksa Anyamanaskta maoM saIlaa – saIlaa saa gauja,r jaata hO jaba vah yaad AatI hO. saca pUCao tao Apnao Gaava Apnao hI haoto hOM¸ ]nhoM Kud hI caaT caaT kr saaf krnaa haota hO. rat kao paTI-
hO. yah paTI- Sabd Aba ATpTa saa laganao lagaa hO¸ yahaM faOja maoM rh kr. kuC j,yaada hI [stomaala haota hO yahaM¸ maanaa haotI BaI bahut hOM pr ijatnaa haotI hOM ]sasao j,yaada iGasaa jaata rha hO yah Sabd Andr
AaOr baahr vaalaaoM daonaaoM ko Wara. “ Aapko yahaM tao bahut paTI-ja, haotI haoMgaIŃ”
baccaaoM kao [sa Sabd maoM iCpI vyaqa- kI rMga ]D,I camak AaOr idKavao AaOr Aqa-hInata sao bacaanaa bahut mauiSkla hO. ]sa pr samaya kI baojaa babaa-dI.
mana BaIYaNa $p sao ]dasa hO. eosaI ]dasaI ijasao bahut Apnaa BaI nahIM samaJa sakta. vah bahut Apnaa [sao pIş emaş esaş ł p`I maOnsT/uAla isanD/aoma´ yaa
Akolaopna kI htaSaa sao j,yaada kuC nahIM samaJa sakta. pr jaanaa hI hO¸ Aa^ifiSayalaŃ faOja maoM kuC SabdaoM kao [stomaala kr krko yaUM capTa kr idyaa jaata hO ik ]na pr hMsaI Aanao lagatI hO.
vahI maOsa¸ vahI barsaaoM puranaI sajaavaT¸ vahI laaoga¸ vahI ilabaasa¸ vahI maokAp¸ vahI baatoM¸ vahI maja,ak. iWAqaI- jaumalao¸ nayao hOM tao esa ema esa
jaaok AaOr maaobaa[la faona. baaik Aaidma p`itiËyaaeM tao vahI hOM — FlaiT-Mga Aajakla fOSana maoM hO. AMga`oja,I kI maihlaa]pyaaogaI pi~kaeM fOimanaa AaOr ka^smaaopa^ilaTnsa baak,ayada [sako gaur isaKatI hOM.
ivavaaihtaoM – AivavaaihtaoM daonaaoM ko ilayao sT/osa rIlaIvar ka kama krtI hO FlaiT-Mga. SaadI ko poprvaoT ko naIcao dbaa kr rKI AaidmaBaavanaaAaoM kao ja,ra hvaa dotI hO yah FlaiT-Mga. saIQao saIQao tao Aap
Anya s~I yaa puÉYa ko saaqa kuC kr nahIM sakto… yah hlka fulka Kola hI sahI¸ yah Kola ektrfa nahIM haota… SaarIirk BaaYaa ko maaihraoM ka Kola hO yah. hldI lagao na ifTkrI …rMga tao hO hI sauK- AakYa-Na ka.
maorI Anyamanaskta ka ga`af naIcao hI nahIM Aa rha. pit kao doK rhI hUĐ baak,ayada ]Cla ]Cla kr baosauro svar maoM gaato. “ saaoe gaaorI ka yaar| balama trsao”
FlaiT-Mga jaarI hO¸ maorI hI saholaI… AaMKoMa ko maMca pr laGaunaaiTka cala rhI hOM… AjaIba saI isËPT hO FlaiT-Mga kI… samaJa sakao tao samaJa laao… samaJanaa caahao taoŃ nahIM tao ]poxaa kr dao. AMtaxarI ka
baosaura Kola K%ma hao cauka hO. khIM enaa]nsa huAa hO maora naama.
maoro idmaaga pr SaOlajaa hI Ca[- hO. vah laala rOgaja,Ina ko kvar vaalaI DayarI yaad Aa ga[- hO. Saorao – SaayarI AaOr iflmaI gaItaoM sao BarI. sargama ko
naaoT\sa BaI ]samaoM ilaKo rhto qao. ek ikSaaorI ka CaoTa saa saMsaar. ek saaMvalaI laD,kI kI dbaI – kucalaI BaavanaaeM.
mauJao kuC gaanaa hO. @yaaĆ maOM maMca pr ApnaI JaInaI ]dasaI ilayao htp`Ba KD,I hUĐ. @yaa gaa}MĆ pit kao p`Snavaacak dRiYT sao doKtI hUĐ. vah glaasa laokr
baar ko pasa KD,o hOM. saba ]nhoM mauD,kr doKto hOM. ek KIja BarI hO ]nakI AaMKaoM maoM. ABaI kuC va@t phlao kI mastI¸ hullaD, maoro naama pr GanaorI }ba AaOr KIja sao Bara hO.
vahI DayarI khIM jahna maoM KulaI hO … laala DayarI ijasako phlao poja pr saaihr ka kao[- baarha saunaa jaa cauka Saor ilaKa qaa… maoro mahbaUba khIM AaOr
imalaa kr mauJasao. Agalao pr AmaRta p``Itma kI kao[- naj,ma. ifr kuC fuTkr Saor. ifr iflmaI gaIt…roiDyaao pr sauna kr ]taro hue.
vah gaanaa baIca ko iksaI poja pr qaa… vahI poja ijasako saamanao vaalao poja pr AaMQaI iflma ka gaanaa ilaKa qaa ‘ toro ibanaa ija,MdgaI sao kao[-…
haM mauJao poja dr poja yaad hO. vah DayarI krIba dsa saala … haM AaOr j,yaada …tba tk maoro saaqa rhI qaI… jaba tk maOM nao Kudnao Aa%maGaatI p`yaasa kr svayaM kao Asptala tk phuMcaa idyaa qaa… puilasavaalaaoM
kI ija,llataoM sao ek baar papa ifr $ba$ hue qao. tba cacaoro baD,o Baa[- nao samaJaayaa qaa… “ kuC tao saaocaao… tuma caaraoM Baa[- bahnaaoM sao @yaa imalaa tumharo poronT\sa kaoĆ ’’ AaOr vah DayarI iksaI nao
maorI AalamaarI maoM sao caupcaap inakala kr jalaa dI qaI.
maOM nao gaunagaunaanaa SauÉ ikyaa hO…]saI poja pr maaoityaaoM jaOsao SabdaoM maoM ilaKa gaanaa. vah bahut saundr gaatI qaI yah ‘ cambala kI ksama’ iflma ka
gaanaa …pta nahIM maOM zIk sao gaa sakUMgaI ik nahIM. maOM nao kBaI yah gaanaa ]sako Alaavaa khIM iksaI sao yaa roiDyaao tk pr nahIM saunaa hO… Sabd saaqa doMgao smaRit ka ik baIca maoM hI bauJa jaayaoMgaoĆ
isamaTI hu[- yao GaiD,yaaM ifr sao na ibaKr jaayaoM
[sa rat maoM jaI laoM hma [sa rat maoM mar jaayaoM
halaat ko tIraoM sao ClanaI hOM badna Apnao
pasa AaAao ko saInaaoM ko kuC ja,#ma tao Bar jaayaoM
tuma Saanao po sar rK dao hma baaMh maoM Bar jaayaoM…
isamaTI hu[-…yao GaiD,yaaM
jaba Zlak Aae gaala tk AaMsaU tao gaanaa band krnaa pD,a. maOM nao kuC qama kr Anaa]nsa kr hI idyaa ik — yah gaanaa maorI bahna gaayaa krtI qaI. jaao ik sa~h
saala kI ]ma` maoM hI duinayaa sao calaI ga[-. Apnao gaIt AaOr lambao baalaaoM kI smaRit CaoD,kr. Aaja ]saka janmaidna hO. baarh navambar.
Gar Aakr pit KIjao hue qao…Apnao dbao hue AtIt ko CaoTo sao TukD,o kao ja,ra saa ]jaagar kr donao pr.
— ja,$rt @yaa qaIĆ Aaya iqaMk yaU naID sama saayaikyaaiT/k @laInaIkla hOlpŃ
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manaIYaa kulaEaoYz
maaca- 1¸ 2005
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