haoMzaoM ko naIlao fUla
baUbaa ko haoMz ibalakula laala qao AaOr baUbaa kao maaOt bahut AcCI lagatI qaI. baUbaa hmaoSaa bahut QaIro – QaIro marnaa caahtI qaI. jaaD,o kI
kunamaunaI QaUp jaOsao pUro badna pr roMgatI hO‚ ibalakula ]saI trh baUbaa maaOt kao CUnaa caahtI qaI.
" tuma maora galaa dbaa sakto haoĆ" baUbaa mauskrakr pUCtI.
" dbaa sakta hUĐ." maOM ApnaI hqaolaI maoM baUbaa kI safod nama- gad-na dbaa laota. baUbaa caupcaap dIvaar sao isar Toko AaMKoM band ikyao baOzI rhtI. maorI ]MgailayaaoM ka ksaava baZ,ta jaata‚ laoikna baUbaa
ko caohro pr kao[- isakuD,na nahIM AatI. baUbaa ko galao kI nasaoM ]Barnao lagatIM AaOr baUbaa ko galao ka vah ihssaa naIlaa pD, jaata. maOM Apnaa haqa hTa laota AaOr baUbaa ko galao ka vah naIlaa ihssaa caUma
laota.
" tuma maorI maaM hao baUbaa." maOM fusafusaayaa.
AaOr ifr baUbaa maora isar Apnao saInao maoM dubaka laotI. " Drpaok‚ " baUbaa hMsa dotI AaOr maorI gad-na pr ]sako daMt QaMsa jaato.
bahut phlao ek tptI daophr maoM ek ptMga ko pICo Baagata huAa maOM baUbaa ko Gar maoM Gausa Aayaa AaOr baUbaa nao mauJao raok ilayaa. maoro haqaaoM maoM
caPPala‚ QaUla sao sanaa caohra‚ psaInao AaOr imaT\TI maoM DUbaa pUra badna.
" kaOna hao tumaĆ" baUbaa nao maora haqa pkD, ilayaa qaa.
" vaao ptMga…" maOM ibalakula sanna rh gayaa qaa tba baUbaa kao doK kr. khanaI ikssaaoM ko pnnaaoM sao fD,fD,atI jaOsao kao[- rajakumaarI inakla AayaI hO. gaaora mauMh‚ laala haoMz AaOr lambao baala. hMsatI tao
fUla Jarto hOM. raotI hO tao maaotI. AaMKoM ]dasaI sao kZ,I hu[-
" [tnao gando – sando GaUmato hao‚ maaM nahIM DaMTtIĆ"
" maaM nahIM hO."
" [tnao CaoTo hao AaOr maaM nahIM hOŃ " baUbaa kI Aavaaja, BaIga ga[- qaI AaOr baUbaa nao mauJao Apnao ibalakula pasa KIMca ilayaa qaa.
" tuma raoja, AaAaogao maoro pasaĆ"
" @yaaoMĆ"
" @yaaoMik tumharI AaMKoM bahut AcCI hOM‚ ibalakula saOToinak ba`a}na."
" tuma ibalakula rajakumaarI lagatI hao." maora Dr K%ma hao gayaa qaa.
" Aao baabaa…" baUbaa iKlaiKlaa kr hMsa pD,I qaI.
" tuma @yaa iksaI ka KUna pItI haoĆ"
" Aao maaM…" baUbaa hMsato – hMsato igar pD,I qaI.
" maora naaOkr khta hO‚ jaao iksaI ka KUna pIta hO ]sako haoMz ibalakula laala hao jaato hOM‚ tumharI trh.
baUbaa ifr maora haqa pkD, kr KIMcatI hu[- Andr lao ga[- qaI. maoro haqa – pOr Qaaokr ]sanao mauJao na jaanao @yaa – @yaa iKlaayaa. saInao sao lagaayao na
jaanao iktnaI dor dularatI rhI AaOr maOM ]sa tptI daophr maoM Apnao Akolao bacapna kao hqaolaI maoM band ikyao QaIro QaIro ipGala kr baUbaa ko Andr isamaT gayaa qaa.
]sako baad maOM raoja, Aata rha. Saama haotI AaOr maOM Baagata huAa baUbaa ko Gar phuMca jaata. baUbaa tBaI naaOkrI sao vaapsa AatI haMftI hu[-. baabaa kI dvaa
ko pOsao bacaanao ko ilayao ek dao maIla pOdla cala kr AatI vah. baUbaa Apnaa kama krtI rhtI AaOr maOM kmaro kI dhlaIja, pr caupcaap baOza baUbaa kao doKa krta. baUbaa Kanaa banaatI‚ kpD,o QaaotI‚ ibastr
lagaatI‚ baabaa kao iKlaatI‚ dvaa dotI AaOr ifr saulaatI BaI. na jaanao iktnaI dor hao jaatI. kBaI – kBaI maOM }MGanao lagata. caaOMkta tba jaba baUbaa ihlaatI.
" saao gayaa @yaaĆ" baUbaa vahIM baOz jaatI
" maOM jaaga jaata." [tnaI dor kr dotI hao‚ kla sao nahIM Aa}Mgaa."
" nahIM baabaa…." baUbaa maora caohra Apnao haqaaoM maoM Barkr Apnao laala haoMz maoro maaqao pr rK dotI‚ kla sao dor nahIM kÉMgaI basa…." AaOr ifr maora isar KIMcakr ApnaI gaaod maoM rK laotI. qaaoD,I dor maoM
baUbaa kI ]MgailayaaM maoro baalaaoM maoM‚ galao maoM‚ saInao pr ek baocaOnaI ko saaqa GaUmanao lagatIM. saaqa hI saaqa baUbaa hmaoSaa‚ caupcaap kao[- iktaba BaI pZ,tI rhtI. A@sar KlaIla ija,ba`ana kI kivata —'
id byaUTI Aa^f Doqa'.
maoro gaala pr jaba kao[- baUMd igartI tba maOM caaOMkta.
" tuma rao rhI hao baUbaaĆ" maOM ]z baOzta. baUbaa Apnao AaMsaU paOMC laotI.
" eosaa @yaaoM haota hO. sauK AadmaI kao CUta huAa @yaaoM inakla jaata hO. ]sao Apnao maoM samaoT kr jama @yaaoM nahIM jaata‚ baf- kI isallaI kI trh…"
maOM kuC nahIM samaJa pata. baUbaa kao Tukur – Tukur doKa krta. baUbaa ifr mauJao Apnao saInao maoM dubakakr baD,baD,ato hue vahiSayaaoM kI trh caUmanao lagatI‚ " sauK kovala kao[- xaNa haota hO ro. maora vah
xaNa tU hOĆ" maora dma GauTnao lagata AaOr maOM ifr ]saI trh pUro ka pUra ipGalanao laga jaata.
" tuma maorI maaM hao baUbaa…."
" haM maOM torI maaM hUĐŃ " baUbaa ffk kr rao pD,tI. maOM vaOsao hI baUbaa ko saInao pr isar rKo laoTa rhta AaOr maora caohra baUbaa ko AaMsauAaoM sao BaIgata rhta.
AaOr tba maOM saaocaa krta Apnao naaOkr kI baat. vah rajakumaarI ijatnaa raotI qaI ]tnao hI ]sako baala lambao haoto jaato qao. baUbaa ko baala [sailayao lambao hOM‚ @yaaoMiok baUbaa hmaoSaa raotI hO.
ja,maIna ka vah TukD,a ibalakula laala hao jaata qaa. gaulamaaohr saarI rat barsato AaOr ]sakI pMKurI – pMKurI sao jaOsao vah TukD,a KUna sao baIga jaata‚ ibalakula
baUbaa ko haoMzaoM kI trh.
ja,maIna ko ]saI sauK- TukD,o ko }pr hma baD,o haoto rho qao. maOM‚ baUbaa‚ maoro Andr ka AadmaI AaOr baUbaa ko Andr kI AaOrt.
" jaanato hao‚ mauJao AaOr tumakao iksa caIja, nao jaaoD,a hOĆ" baUbaa pUCtI.
" nahIM."
" Apnao haonao ko baomaanaIpna nao.Apnao Aist%va kI inarqa-kta nao." na jaanao tba iktnaI rat baIt caukI haotI. baUbaa hmaoSaa tba eosaI hI baatoM krtI.
" hma daonaaoM ek dUsaro ko knQaaoM pr isar rKkr raoto hOM ro. ek dUsaro ko Akolaopna kao caupcaap kutrto hue. yahI vah ja,maIna hO‚ ijasa pr hma daonaaoM imalato hOM."
maOM baUbaa ka haqa Apnao haqaaoM maoM lao laota. ibalakula saUKI Jauir-yaaoM vaalaa haqa. baUbaa ko pUro badna sao ]saka haqa ibalakula Alaga qaa. jaOsao iksaI
baUZ,I AaOrt kI hqaolaI kaTkr baUbaa ko haqaaoM maoM jaaoD, dI gayaI hO.
" tumhara haqa eosaa @yaaoM hOĆ" maOM baUbaa ko haqa kI ]BarI naIlaI nasaaoM pr ]MgalaI forta rhta.
" haqa hmaoSaa idla kI trh haota hO." baUbaa hMsa pD,tI‚ " tUnao kBaI ?gvaod ka gaIt saunaa hOĆ " baUbaa mauJao Apnao pasa KIMca laotI.
" kaOna saaĆ"
" yama AaOr yamaI ka gaItĆ"
" nahIM…Ń"
" jaanata hO tU… yama AaOr yamaI Baa[- – bahna qao. ek idna yamaI nao yama sao pUCa‚ 'tU maora kaOna hOĆ' ' Baa[-' yama baaolaa. ' tora Qama- @yaa hOĆ' yamaI nao pUCa.' tuJao sauK donaa….' yama baaolaa. '
mauJao rit sauK do yamaI nao yaacanaa kI."
" baUbaa…." maora haqa kaMp gayaa.
" Drpaok…Ń" iKlaiKlaa kr hMsa pD,I baUbaa‚ " dohatIt haokr saaoca ek baar yamaI kI [sa baat kao. ifr jaIvana dSa-na banaa lao — Apnao jaIvana ko saaro maUlyaaoM ka AaQaar."
" baUbaa…."
" haM ro‚ yamaI kI [sa baat sao Acaanak ]saka jaIvana iktnaa baD,a hao gayaa hO. iktnaa ]namau@t‚
vyaapk AaOr spYTŃ eosaa nahIM hO @yaaĆ yah dRYTant tao svayaM maoM ek dSa-na hO. yamaI kI dRiYT iktnaI inaBaI-k AaOr ivastRt hO. jaIvana ko CaoTo – CaoTo
TukD,aoM maoM ]<aINa-. tuJakao [sailayao bata rhI hUĐ ik kovala tuJasao hI tao baaola patI hUĐ. ifr tuJao tao ABaI bahut baD,a haonaa hO. sa%ya ka AnvaoYaI‚ tTsqa dRiYT AbaI sao saIK lao…"
" laoikna pap…Ń "
" Qat\. Agar pap AaOr puNya sa%ya hOM tao sauK kuC BaI nahIM haota roŃ AaOr Agar sauK sa%ya hO tao pap – puNya ka kao[- Aist%va nahIM hO. sauK kI ina%yata tao hma inaiScat hI jaanato hOM‚ [sailayao pap – puNya
kuC nahIM hO."
" tao yamaI kI isqait…."
" haM‚ yamaI kI isqait maanya hO. yamaI ko jaIvana kI spYTta maora AadSa- hO."
" AaOr irStaoM ka Qama-Ć"
" irStaoM ko naama jaIvana kao bahut CaoTo CaoTo GaoraoM maoM baaMQa doto hOM. AaMKaoM maoM kpD,a baaMQao baOla kI trh AadmaI ]nhIM GaoraoM maoM GaUmata rhta hO. yah ga,lat hO. ek baar maoM AadmaI @yaa saba
irSto nahIM Baaoga saktaĆ @yaa maoro AaOr toro irSto ka kao[- naama hOĆ @yaa maOM torI saba kuC nahIM hUĐĆ maaM‚ daost‚ bahna… baaolaĆ"
" haĐ‚ baUbaa…." maOM baUbaa kI hqaolaI kI naIlaI nasaoM caUma laota. " tuma maorI [klaaOtI Aasqaa hao‚ maorI rixata hao‚ maorI klyaaNaI." maorI Aavaaja, kaMpnao lagatI. baUbaa maorI inagaahaoM maoM tba na
jaanao iktnaI }pr ]z jaatI. &anaI‚ gaMBaIr‚ mama%vamayaI baUbaa.
" Aa calaoM…." baUbaa ]z jaatI.
gaulamaaohr kI sauK- pMKuiryaaM baUbaa ko baalaao maoM ]laJaI haotIM.
" ek baat pUCUM baUbaaĆ" maOM zhr jaata. " ifr yama nao @yaa ikyaaĆ"
" ]saka kao[- mah%va nahIM hO ro. doh ka Aist%va tao kuC xaNaaoM ka haota hO… basa…."
" AcCa baUbaa‚ tuma jaao kuC khtI hao‚ @yaa sacamauca ]tnaa ]namau@t
haokr kr saktI haoĆ"
" Saayad‚" baUbaa hMsa dotI‚ " ApnaI baUbaa kao samaJaa nahIM @yaaĆ"
" samaJaa tao ibalakla nahIM. raoja, nayaI baUbaa kao doKta hUĐ naŃ"
baUbaa iKlaiKlaa pD,tI‚ " yaU saoToinak ba`a]naĆ " AaOr ifr maorI gad-na maoM baUbaa ko daMt QaMsa jaato.
kBaI kBaI maOM saaocata ik baUbaa [tnaI caup @yaaoM rhtI hO‚ @yaaoM eosaI baatoM krtI hO‚ tao mauJao samaJa maoM nahIM Aata. ek idna baUbaa nao mauJao batayaa qaa‚ "
maorI pUrI doh mauda- #vaabaaoM sao gauMqaI hO ro‚ AaOr jaba kBaI ]na #vaabaaoM maoM sao kao[- #vaaba krvaT laota hO tao maOM ibalakula caup hao jaatI hUĐ. khIM vah #vaaba jaaga na jaayao…"
baUbaa rao pD,I qaI ifr‚ AaOr tba mauJao baUbaa ko pUro badna pr maro hue sapnao fOlao idKa[- pD,o qao. mauJao lagaa qaa ik baUbaa kI doh ka kaonaa kaonaa hr va@t
kao[- na kao[- laD,a[- laD,ta rhta hO AaOr ]nhIM maro hue sapnaaoM ko baIca‚ kaonao – kaonao kI laD,a[- ko baIca maorI baUbaa baD,I haotI rhI hO. ]sako baad maOM nao kBaI kuC nahIM pUCa. maOM jaanata qaa.
baUbaa iksaI ja,maIna ka kao[- eosaa TukD,a caahtI hO‚ ijasa pr baUbaa Apnao paMva rK sako. qakI hu[- haMftI baUbaa Aba AaOr nahIM laD,naa caahtI AaOr [sailayao ja,maIna vah TukD,a kBaI yamaI kI isqait haotI‚
kBaI
KlaIla ija,ba`ana kI
' id byaUTI Aa^f Doqa' AaOr kBaI maOM.
baUbaa ]sa rat sadI- sao kaMp rhI qaI.
" Andr calaoMĆ " maOM nao kha.
" nahIM…" baUbaa nao Apnaa Saa^la AaOr ksakr lapoT ilayaa. baohd qakI laga rhI qaI baUbaa. na jaanao ]MgalaI sao @yaa – @yaa KIMcatI rhI fSa- pr. maOM caupcaap baOza doK rha qaa. maOM jaanata qaa yahI vah xaNa
hO jaba Apnao Aist%va kI inarqa-kta ko baaoJa sao baUbaa ka dma GauTnao lagata hO AaOr baUbaa isaf- marnaa caahtI hO. ibalakula QaIro – QaIro. maOM saaoca rha qaa ik baUbaa mauJasao pUCogaI ik @yaa maOM ]saka
galaa dbaa sakta hUĐ AaOr maOM baUbaa ko galao pr Apnaa haqa Qar dUMgaa.
" saunaao…" baUbaa bahut dor baad baaolaI. baUbaa kI Aavaaja, bahut QaImaI qaI‚ " maOM mahsaUsa krnaa caahtI hUĐ ik maOM hUĐ." baUbaa saIQao maorI AaMKaoM maoM
doK rhI qaI.
"baUbaa…Ń" maOM nao baUbaa ko caohro pr eosaa tnaava AaOr qakana kBaI nahIM doKI qaI. baUbaa ka caohra [sa sadI- maoM BaI BaIga rha qaa. baUbaa ko saaqa hmaoSaa sao calata huAa maIlaaoM lambaa Akolaapna AaOr
sannaaTa BartI hu[- Saama kI lalaCaOMhI‚ kuC eosaa hI baUbaa ko caohro pr fOlaa qaa.
" maOM Apnao haonao kao pUra‚ pr jaInaa caahtI hUĐ."
" maOM samaJaa nahIM baUbaa…."
" tU maoro ilayao @yaa kr sakta hOĆ"
" kuC BaI."
" kuC BaIĆ sa%ya – Asa%ya sao pro‚ sauK – duÁK ko ibanaaĆ"
" haM baUbaa."
" mauJao caUmaao." baUbaa nao maora haqa pkD, ilayaa. baUbaa kI hqaolaI BaIga rhI qaI. baUbaa kI AaMKoM QaIro QaIro balanao lagaI qaIM.
" baUbaa…." maOM Dr rha qaa baUbaa kI saUrt sao. ]dasaI sao kZ,I baUbaa kI AaMKoM isaf- ek AaOrt kI AaMKoM rh ga[- qaIM.
ek eosaI AaOrt jaao hmaoSaa sao baUbaa ko Andr qaI‚ baUbaa ko saaqa baD,I haotI rhI‚ laoikna baUbaa nao ]sao kBaI Apnao sao baahr JaaMknao nahIM idyaa. vah
AaOrt QaIro QaIro baUbaa ko ijasma kI ek ek nasa maoM fOla gayaI qaI AaOr Aaja vahI AaOrt jaba baahr inaklanaa caah rhI qaI tao baUbaa kI ek ek pt- ek ek nasa caTk rhI qaI.
maOM ]za AaOr QaIro sao maOMnao baUbaa ka galaa caUma ilayaa. ibalakula vahI ihssaa jaao maoro dbaanao sao naIlaa pD, jaata qaa.
" maoro haoMz." baUbaa fusafusaayaI. baUbaa nao ApnaI AaMKoM band kr laIM. maOM nao Jaukkr baUbaa ko haoMz caUma ilayao. sauK- laala haoMz. ek GaUMT Bara hao jaOsao maOM nao KUna ka.
" AaOr…" baUbaa kI baocaOna ]MgailayaaM maorI gardna maoro saInao pr roMga rhI qaIM.
" AaOr…"
" baUbaa…." maOM haMfnao lagaa. maoro caohro pr psaInaa ClaClaa Aayaa. maora badna kaMp rha qaa. mauJao laga rha qaa ik maOM Apnao Aap sao iCTk kr Alaga
hao gayaa hUĐ AaOr isaf- ek AadmaI maoro Andr SaoYa rh gayaa hO.
bahut phlao maOM nao pUCa qaa baUbaa sao ik yama nao @yaa ikyaa … baUbaa nao kha qaa‚ ]saka kao[- mah%va nahIM hO. mah%va hO jaIvanadRiYT ka‚ maUlyaaoM ka AaOr
maOM nao ifr pUCa qaa baUbaa sao ik maUlyaaoM ko ilayao tuma ijasa trh sao saaocatI hao‚ ]tnaa mau@t haokr ]nakao jaI saktI haoĆ
" Saayad…" baUbaa nao kha qaa. maorI vahI baUbaa‚ maorI [klaaOtI Aasqaa maoro saamanao baOzI qaI. yamaI kI jaIvana dRiYT kao AadSa- maananao vaalaI‚ SaaSvat sa%ya kI AnvaoiYaka‚ pap – puNya ko Anaaist%va AaOr
irStaoM ko Qama- kI AQyao~I‚ maorI rixata – maorI klyaaNaI‚ maorI maaM.
" mauJao sauK do ro… mauJao ivastar do…." baUbaa nao KIMca ilayaa.
"baUbaa…" maOM kuC khnaa caahta qaa. laoikna Acaanak hI baUbaa kI AaMKaoM maoM‚ haoMzaoM pr‚ saOkD,aoM maro sapnao krvaT badlanao lagao. baUbaa kI haMftI
saaMsaaoM kao iksaI j,amaIna ka ek TukD,a caaihyao qaa‚ ijasa pr Ékkr baUbaa kuC gahrI saaMsaoM lao sako. maOM isaf- baudbauda kr rh gayaa. AaOr maOM‚ isaf- ek AadmaI‚ baUbaa ko‚ isaf- ek AaOrt ko saInao pr
haMfta huAa igar pD,a.
saubah jaba maOM gayaa tao bahut sannaaTa qaa. baabaa kmaro maoM saao rho qao. kmaro kI dhlaIja, pr QaUp ka ek TukD,a roMga rha qaa. baUbaa khIM nahIM idKI.
maOM vahIM ek kaonao maoM baOz gayaa. kuC dor maoM baUbaa baaqa$ma sao inaklaI. vahI puranaI ]dasaI sao kZ,I AaMKoM. saUjaI hu[-M. saarI rat rao[- qaI Saayad baUbaa. haoMz BaI kuC iClao hue AaOr saUja rho qao.
mauJao doKto hI baUbaa caaOMk gayaI. maorI AaMKoM Jauk gayaIM.
" tU Aa gayaa roŃ" doK tao maoro haoMz kOsao naIlao hao gayao hOMŃ ibalakula ja,hr maoM DUbao. saarI rat tao Qaaoyaa hO maOM nao [nhoM‚ laoikna yah rMga CUTta hI nahIM." baD,baD,atI hu[- baUbaa ifr nala pr
calaI gayaI.
maOM fUT – fUT kr rao pD,a.
"Aao Anaamaa‚ AdRYTa maM~kta-‚ tumharI kqaa AQaUrI qaI. Aagao @yaa huAa‚ yah maOM batata hUĐ. SaaSvat sa%ya kI AnvaoiYaka yamaI doh sa%ya kao Apnao jaIvana ko str pr jaI nahIM payaI AaOr ]sako haoMz naIlao pD,
gayao. maorI baUbaa kI trh ja,hr maoM DUbao dao naIlao fUlaaoM jaOsao haoMz."
ip`yaMvad
maaca- 15¸ 2005
