hnaImaUna
lahro baar baar AatIM. pavaaoM kao CUkr ¸ dularakr ifr laaOT jaatI .samuad` ABaI SaaMt qaa.raOSanaI kI ktar ko baIca SaMK AaOr saIp ko
saamaana ¸ tlaI hu[- maClaI ¸Aa[sak`Ima¸ kOMDI AaOr ka^fI ko sTala .laaogaaoM kI BaID, ]maD,tI qaI ¸ baUZ,o ¸baccao ¸ javaana.
hma daonaao caupcaap ¸Alaga qalaga ¸BaID, sao QaIro QaIro ek ek kdma dUr jaato rho.]sako paĐvaaoM ko inaSaana pr maOM Apnao paĐva ehityaat
sao rKtI ]sako pICo pICo tba tk calatI rhI jaba tk maoro [sa bacakanao Kola sao tMga Aakr ]sanao KIMca kr mauJao Apnao baaĐhao ko Gaoro maoM lao ilayaa. kmar kao Gaoro ]sakI baaĐho mauJao kOd kr ga[-
qaIM .
hma bahut dUr panaI ko iknaaro iknaaro rot pr calato Aa gayao qao ¸ raOSanaI pICo CUT ga[- qaI .
[sa Anajaana AjanabaI saMsaar maoM jaOsao hma dao hI p`aNaI qao ¸naSvar ¸]sa AnaSvar samuad` kI garjatI lahraoM AaOr ja,maIna Aasamaana ko
ek haonao kI prCa[-M maa~ sao isahrto ¸ Akolao pr ifr BaI saaqa saaqa .
hma saPtahaMt manaanao yahaĐ Aayao qao pr maOM [sa kSamakSa maoM qaI ik jaao kr rhI hUĐ vaao sahI hO @yaa Ć]saka AaOr maora pircaya laMbaa
qaa . pr Aba tk jaao mana kI piriQa maoM kOd qaa ]sao
SarIr ka ivastar do panaa @yaa saMBava qaa maoro ilayao .hma esao hI imalato rhoM yao BaI hao sakta qaa ka^fI laa]Đja maoM ¸ rostraM maoM ¸ klaa dIGaa- maoM .laMbaI baatoM haotI jaao K%ma nahIM haotI
dUsaro idna baataoM ka vahI isara Kaoja kr hma ifr na[- baatoM baunato .
Sau$Aat tao eosaI hI hu[- qaI .]sakI BaUrI AaĐKaoM maoM AjaIba saI Sarart kaOMQatI .kaBaI mauJao doKto doKto gahra jaatI .]sako baala
ija_I baccao kI trh maaqao par igar jaato .pr kBaI ek naTKT SaOtana baccaa ]sako AMdr sao baahr inaklanao kao baokabUa hao ]zta jaOsao ek SaOtana baccaa jaao maohmaanaao ko Aanao pr maaĐ ko manaa krnao
ko baavaj,aUd baar baar Sarart kr baOzta hO . ]sako vyai@t%va ka yah imaEaNa mauJao phlao tao ]ksaata rha pr ifr kba yao caahnaa maoM badla gayaa yao pta hI nahIM calaa .
pr yao jaao BaI qaa ekdma PlaOTaoinak qaa . ]sanao kBaI mauJao galatI sao BaI CuAa nahIM qaa .eosaa nahIM qaa ik maaOko nahIM qao . k[-
baar Gar BaI Aata . Torosa pr baOzkr ka^fI ko Anaiganat PyaalaaoM ko daOrana hmaarI baatcaIt calatI .
maOM AkolaI Apnao sTUiDyaao Apa-TmaoMT maoM… pr kBaI ehsaasa nahIM haota ik hma yaaina ek AaOrt AaOr ek mad- yaaoM Akolao maoM imala rho
hOM. [sakI vaja,h maOM qaI yaa vaao¸ yao BaI pta nahIM.vaOsao maOM KasaI AakYa-k qaI. AcCI naaOkrI¸ApnaI gaaD,I¸ Apnaa Gar . AkolaI rhtI qaI ¸kao[- raokTaok nahIM . mad- k[- baar mauJao Avaolaobala samaJa
kr p`stava kr cauko qao ijanho maOM baD,I inama-mata sao ]nako mauĐh pr vaapsa foMk idyaa krtI qaI. eosaa krnao maoM mauJao AjaIba saa sauK imalata .
AaOr tba Acaanak hI ]sanao ekdma sarlata sao Apnao saaqa saPtahaMt ibatanao ka p`stava rKa qaa—
“calaaogaI¸ Agalao vaIkeMD Ć”
maOMnao caaOMk kr doKa qaa ]sao.TTaolanao kI kaoiSaSa kI qaI. @yaa qaa ]sa p`stava ko pICo . caohro kI maasUaimayat ko pICo kao[- AaOr vaË BaavaBaMigamaa .
“khaĐ Ć”
maOMnao BaI Anajaana banato huyao kha qaa .maora caohra pZ, na lao [sa Baya sao mauD, ga[- qaI .]sako laayao fUlaaoM kao vaasa
maoM Dalanao ko bahanao.
maOM @yaa caahtI qaI Ć
[sa irSto ka yao ivakasa¸ Saayad svaaBaaivak hI qaa .
Apnaa mana TTaolaa tao lagaa ik khIM sao ]sakI Aaor sao iksaI eosao p`stava ka [Mtjaa,r hI kr rhI qaI . dOihk AnauBaUityaaM
sanasanaa ga[-M qaI .]sanao jagah ka naama ilayaa qaa .mauD, kr ]sakI Aaor doKa tao ]sakI AaĐKoM hĐsa rhI qaIM . caohra ja,$r baolaaOsa qaa .
“ haĐ ¸vha[- naa^T. ”
ek ijad ko sao svar maoM maOMnao kha .
“ifr plaT mat jaanaa. ”
“ maOM ]namao sao nahIM. ”
“ tao tya rhaŃ ”
jaanao ko phlao maMqana krtI rhI .Agar hmaara irSta SarIr ko hdaoM kao CUnao lagao tao saMtulana mauJamaoM Saayad na rho .mauJao ]sasao
nahI Apnao Aap sao Dr laganao lagaa .]sanao ek baar ifr baIca maoM kBaI Taoka qaa
“ABaI BaI saaoca laao. ”
“maOM nao ekbaar haĐ kh dI hO na. ”
Aba maOM baĐQa ga[- qaI Apnao hI banaae baĐQana maoM .pr Ahma p`Sna yao qaa ik @yaa CUTnaa caahtI qaI .
]sa jaOsao saudSa-na yauvak ka saaqa AaOr ]sakI maoro saaqa kI caahnaa @yaa mauJao BaI baokrar nahIM kr rhI qaI .maOM Apnao kao naOitkta
ko savaalaaoM sao pRqak rK rhI qaI. jaao ja$rI qaa maoro ilayao vaao yao ik maOM @yaa caahtI qaI. Apnao kao AaQauinak¸ilabarla¸kamakajaI AaOrt ko isTiryaaoTa[p sao Alaga hTakr isaf- Apnao mana kI caaht ko
saMdBa- maoM kao[- inaScaya krnaa Aasaana nahIM laga rha qaa .AMt maoM qakhar kr @laaMt mana sao Apnao kao bahava maoM bahnao kao CaoD, idyaa .
Aaja Cu+I ka phlaa idna qaa . yaa yao khoM ik phlaI rat qaI . idna tao baIt cauka qaa.]sako baaĐhaoM ko Gaoro maoM calato calato rat kI
saMBaavanaa mauJao khIM AaSaMikt kr rhI qaI .haoTla laaOTo qao . maOM turt Apnao kmaro maoM Aa ga[- qaI .Tba maoM pD,I ¸panaI AaOr saabauna ko foinala Jaaga maoM laoTo mana kao KalaI CaoD, idyaa qaa
.faona kI GaMTI bajaI qaI —
“Agar turt naIcao nahIM Aa[- tao BaUKa saaonaa pD,ogaa .rostraM baMd haonao ka samaya hao gayaa hO.”
“basa dsa imanaT maoM naIcao phuĐcatI hUĐ.”
Kanaa mauJasao Kayaa nahIM jaa rha qaa. hr kaOr ATkta qaa galao maoM. panaI ko CaoTo CaoTo isap maOM laotI
rhI.vaao tnmaya hao kr Kata rha . paocD ifSa ko ktlao ¸riSayana salaad ¸bao@D icakona ¸ Aao ga`ataM . saba maoro psaMd ko vyaMjana qao pr Aaja maorI BaUK mar g[- qaI .[tnaa baD,a kdma ]za tao ilayaa qaa
ifr AMjaama tk phuĐcanao maoM yao ihcaikcaahT ¸[tnaI GabarahT @yaaoM hao rhI qaI .
“tuma Ka nahIM rhI Ć”
“khaĐ Ć Ka tao rhI hUĐ .” ¸maorI Aavaaja, kuC kmaja,aor saI qaI .
vaao baatoM krta rha ¸ Kanao ka AanaMd ]zata rha ¸maorI maanaisak dSaa sao jaOsao ibalakula AniBa& .
ibala Aa gayaa qaa . jaba tk vaao saa[na krta maOM ]z ga[- qaI .
“maOM ek isagaroT pI laUĐĆ ”]sakI AaĐKoM jaanao kOsao Sarart sao camak ]zI qaIM .
“tuma jaaAao ¸qak ga[-M haoMgaI . SauBarai~. ” maora kMQaa qapqapakr vah plaT gayaa .kmaro maoM phuĐca maOMnao drvaajaa, baMd ikyaa AaOr ifr baMd drvaajao, pr hI sar iTkakr haĐf ga[- .CUT jaanao ka saa
ehsaasa ¸pta nahIM @yaa qaa .kpD, badla kr ibastr maoM dubak g[- . saubah faona kI GaMTI sao naIMd KulaI .
“gauD maa^ina-Mga .naIMd AcCI Aa[- Ć”]sakI Aavaaja, mauJao dulara ga[- .
“tOyaar haokr naIcao phuĐcaao .ifr Aaja ka kaya-k``ma tya krto hOM ”
daonaaoM idna hma KUba GaUmao . rat Apnao Apnao kmaro maoM tnha saaoyao . saaomavaar hma vaapsa Aa gayao qao Apnao kama pr .
pr khanaI ka AMt [sao mat samaJa laIijayao . AjaI Aap BaI khoMgao yao kaOna saI khanaI hu[- .na kao[- GaTnaa GaTI ¸ na kao[- hadsaa huAa
.kao[- raomaaMsa BaI nahIM .Aro pr Aagao sauna tao laIijayao .
Aaja ifr maOM ]saI haoTla maoM zhrI hUĐ . ek saala baad hma ]saI idna kI trh samaud` tT sao GaUma kr vaapsa Aayao hOM . maOM baaqa$ma maoM
naha rhI hUĐ . jaldI k$Đ varnaa rostraM baMd hao jaayaogaa . hmaoM BaUKo hI saaonaa pD,ogaa.ABaI ]sao BaI tao nahanaa hO . kmaro sao jaao gaanao kI Aavaaja, Aa rhI hO ]saI kI tao hO .Aapkao batayaa nahIM
hma hnaImaUna pr Aayao hOM .
p`%yaxaa
Ap`ola 15¸ 2005
