KrgaaoSa
ivaraoQaaBaasaaoM ko saMiQasqala pr iTkI ip`yaMvad kI khainayaaM

mauJao ip`yaMvad kI khainayaaoM AaOr ]pnyaasaaoM kao samaga`ta sao pZ, panao ka Avasar tao nahIM imalaa‚ ikntu ihndI kI SaIYa- saaihi%yak pi~kaAaoM maoM ]nhoM pZ,a qaa‚ AaOr hala hI maoM ]naka khanaI saMga`h ' KrgaaoSa ' pZ,nao kao imalaa.

ip`yaMvad laaokip`ya kqaakar hOM.]nhoM Aksar pi~kaAaoM maoM AvaOQa sambanQaaoM ka safla kqaakr kh kr pirBaaiYat ikyaa gayaa hO.]nhoM [sa trh sao AvaOQa sambanQaaoM ko safla kqaakar GaaoiYat krnaa ]nako klaa%mak ivastar AaOr ]nakI laoKna xamata kao saIimat krnao jaOsaa hO. ip`yamvad Apirimat manaaolaaok ko kqaakar hOM hala hI maoM hMsa AaOr vaagaqa- p`kaiSat ]nakI khainayaaM
 ' dSa-k' AaOr ' caUho ' [saka ]dahrNa hOM.

p`oma AaOr doh maoM DUbao pa~aoM ka manaaoivaSlaoYaNa krtI yao khainayaaM… ijasa trh sao Avacaotna kI QaUla paOMC kr ]sao camaka kr duinayaa ko saamanao laatI hOM vah Ad\Baut hO. p`oma AaOr doh kao bahut laaogaaoM nao Apnao Apnao ZMga sao saaih%ya maoM p`stut ikyaa hO‚ AvaOQa sambanQaaoM kao laokr‚ jaOnaond`‚ yaSapala‚ A&oya‚
inama-la vamaa- jaOsao maUQa-nya saaih%yakaraoM nao BaI kafI ilaKa hO. ip`yamvad nao BaI ilaKa laoikna inatant nayao ZMga sao… Avacaotna ko dbao Sahr kao prt dr prt Kaojato hue. p`oma AaOr doh AaOr [sako BaTkava ko tyaSauda yaqaaqa-prk kqaanakaoM sao hT kr [nako kqaanakaoM ka trla khIM AaOr samaanaantr bah rha haota hO.

…jaba kBaI maOM imaT\TI kI thaoM ko naIcao dbao iksaI Sahr kao inaklata huAa doKta hUÐ ‚ ]sakI saIiZ,yaaoM kao… AaMgana… gailayaaM… bat-na… caUlho… iKlaaOnaaoM kao‚ tao mauJao hmaoSaa kuC dohaoM ka #yaala Aata hO. ]sa Sahr maoM mauJao bahut kuC idKnao lagata hO. ]sako AMQaoro kaonaaoM maoM fusafusaatI AdRSya dohoM. GaaoD,aoM ko KuraoM sao ilaqaD,tI… icataAaoM pr jalatI… ek dUsaro maoM ]laJaI QaMsaI‚ ek dUsaro kao inagalatI hu[-… caUmatI hu[-. ]sa Sahr maoM paMva rKta hUЂ tao Drta hUÐ ik khIM kao[- caumbana na dba jaayao. kao[- maaqao kI isalavaT… kao[- Aalaap… kao[- iBaMcaI mauT\zI… kao[- pqara[- AaMK na caUr hao jaayao.…³ khanaI ' baaoiQavaRxa pRº 14 – 15´

yah ip`yaMvad kI rcanaa%mak samvaodnaa kI prakaYza hO.

BaaYaa kI Aqa-maya duÉhta kqaanak kI du$hta kao ek trf kI caunaaOtI dotI p`tIt haotI hO vahIM daonaaoM ek dUsaro kI pUrk hOM.

CaoTo CaoTo yaM~Naa maoM BaIgao‚ Aa%mapID,na ko sauK sao Baro plaaoM kI baarIk na@kaSaI koa sauGaD,ta ]kora hO hr khanaI maoM. ]nakI hr khanaI ko naopqya sao ek iksma kI svapID,a sao BarI ]dasaI iJalaimalaatI hO … ijasako ilayao AMga`ojaI maoM kha jaayao tao ' e fOnT Aa^ra Aa^f maOlanklaI'. inasandoh khanaI ko xao~ maoM ]nakI phcaana ekdma Alaga hO.
mauJao jahaM tk samaJa Aayaa ipyaMvad ApnaI khanaI maoM Baaogao hue yaqaaqa- kao nahIM jaIto bailk hD,baD,I maoM jaIto hue yaqaaqa- ko pOr tlao kucala gayao samvaodnaaoM ‚ ]na ]pioxat hao gayao xaNaaoM kao sahlaa kr ]za laoto hOM ‚ AaOr khanaI ko pnnaaoM pr QaIro sao rK doto hOM. caotnata maoM jaInao kI badhvaasaI maoM Avacaotna maoM bahto ]sa trla kao saaMcao maoM Zala kr ek AnaUzI kRit banaanao ka p`yaasa hOM ]nakI khainayaaM.

maOM ip`yamvad ko ijasa khanaI saMga`h kao saaih%yakaoYa maoM p`stut kr rhI hUЂ vah hO ' KrgaaoSa '. [sa saMga`h kI hr khanaI bahucaica-t rhI hO. caaho vah baaoiQavaRxa hao yaa KrgaaoSa yaa baUZ,o ka ]%sava.

KrgaaoSa kI cacaa- krto hue maOM yahaM khUMgaI ik inama-la jaI kI khainayaaM jahaM pZ,nao ko baad gahna ]dasaI kI lakIr CaoD, jaatI hOM‚ vahaM ip`yaMvad kI khainayaaM pZ, kr dbaI saI caIK inakla pD,tI hO‚ Aa%mayan~Naa%mak kqaanak hOrt maoM Dalato hOM. [saI saMsaar ko saaQaarNa pirisqaityaaoM maoM jaIto saaQaarNa laaogaaoM kI AsaaQaarNa maanaisak yaM~NaaeM ]GaaD,naa ip`yaMvad kI ivaSaoYata hO. eosaa lagata hO — khainayaaoM ko ilaKo jaanao kI p`iËyaa maoM khIM BaItr jaanao kaOnasaa ' saOiDisTk Plaoja,r' Cupa hO.

khanaI saMga`h kI yah p`qama khanaI plaMga ek itkaonao kmaro kI khanaI hO‚ ijasaka cair~ saMyaaojana BaI itkaonaa hO. ek AQaoD, haota kuMvaara‚ ]sakI AQaoD, haotI p`oimaka AaOr vaRwa maaM. ek plaMga hO… jaao tInaaoM jaIvanaaoM kao AaËant ikyao hue hO…. maaM kao AtIt sao‚ baoTo kao ABaoV pirisqaityaaoM sao‚ p`oimaka kao BaivaYya AinaiScatta sao AaËant ikyao hue hO yah plaMga. plaMga jaao kovala ek baD,o kmaro ka baD,a kaonaa hI nahIM Gaorta ]nako jaIvanaaoM pr BaI ApnaI Cayaa Dalao hue hO. plaMga ko ibanaa maaM ka vaja,Ud nahIM hO‚ maaM ko ibanaa baoTo ka AaOr p`oimaka caahtI qaI ik vah ]sasao SaadI kr lao AaOr jahaja,naumaa plaMga ]sa tIsaro kaonao kao ]sako ilayao KalaI kr do.

maaM ko ilayao plaMga ka mah%va qaa —  plaMga ek trh sao ]sako Aist%va kI AiBavyai@t qaa… ]pisqait kI saaqa-kta… Aqa-va<aa qaa. plaMga pr hI ]sao maora saamaIPya imalata qaa jaao ]sakI bacaI hu[- ]mar ka SaoYa‚ [klaaOta sauK qaa. ³ pRº 9´

[sa khanaI ko tInaaoM pa~aoM ko baIca jahaM ek AGaaoiYat‚ maUk  KIMcatana hO‚ AiQakar hO vahIM ek maUk ivavaSata AaOr yaM~Naa hO‚ ]nhIM halaataoM maoM ijayao calao jaanao kI. maaM AaOr p`oimaka ko AiQakar kao laokr naayak kI ek saImaa tya hO… ]sako BaItr na p`oimaka na maaM ka p`vaoSa saMBava hO. ek Ak-maNya iksma ka samaJaaOta kr rKa hO naayak nao ApnaI pirisqaityaaoM sao‚ ]sa itkaonao kmaro sao‚ plaMga sao‚ maaM sao‚ p`oimaka sao. maanaao vah halaataoM kao badlanao maoM ja,ra BaI [cCuk nahIM. Apnao Aap iksaI trh badla jaayaoM tao zIk hO.

ek ]dasaInata‚ samaJaaOto AaOr Akma-Nyata kao laokr calaI yah khanaI AnttÁ inama-ma hao jaatI hO .

ek baat maoM ip`yaMvad kI tulanaa ipkasaao sao kI jaa saktI hO‚ vao ApnaI khainayaaoM kI is~yaaoM‚ p`oimakaAaoM kao baD,o hI AjaIba AaOr Alaga ZMga sao icai~t krto hOM. saaOMdya-Saas~ ko maanadNDaoM sao khIM bahut hT kr… ksaI Kala‚ CaoTo CaoTo pMjao… laTkI CaityaaM‚ AaMKaoM maoM kIcaD,‚ safod poT… CaoTa caohra… vao AjaIba saa kaolaaja banaa doto hOM. ikntu yahI ]nako laoKna kao ivaiSaYT banaata hO.

saMga`h kI AgalaI khanaI ' baaoiQavaRxa ' na kovala saMga`h kI varna\ svayaM laoKk kI mah%vapUNa- khainayaaoM maoM sao ek hO‚ jaao ik ]nako laoKkIya dSa-na ka p`itinaiQa%va krtI hO.' hr doh ek Cupa Sahr hO‚ hr Sahr ek naMgaI doh.'
ifr BaI A%yant saflata sao inavaa-h kI ga[- [sa khanaI maoM kao[- AvaOQa p`oma‚ yaa doh Saaimala nahIM hO… ikntu yah khanaI ]nakI rcanaa%mak xamata ko AsaaQaarNa ivastar ka p`tIk hO.

yah khanaI hO AMQaoro AaOr QauMe maoM haMfto ek Sahr kI AaOr ]na ATpTo naamaaoM vaalaI saMkrI gailayaaoM kI‚ yah khanaI hO [sa Sahr kI thaoM maoM basaI baocaOna $haoM ko safr kI. yah khanaI hO Asagar maohMdI kI‚ raSaola kI‚ laoKk kI AaOr ]nakI ApnaI ApnaI dIvaanaigayaaoM kI.

laoKk dRSyaaoM ko BaItr khIM krvaToM laoto‚ QauMQalao dRSyaaoM kao ek ica~kar kI ]sa baarIk dRiYT ko saaqa ]korto hOM… ik khIM kBaI bacapna maoM kutuhla sao doKo‚ kOSaaoya- maoM htp`Ba kr gayao yaa yauvaavasqaa maoM jaugauiPsat kr gayao… AaOr khIM Acacaotna maoM gahro dbao dRSya yaad Aa jaato hOM. masalana saaMDo ka tola baocanao vaalao ka majamaa‚ naMgaI pgalaI‚ kTaoro sao Gaava Kujaata kaoZ,I iBaKarI‚ ]laTI krtI vaoSyaaeM‚ rMgarojaaoM kI galaI kI rMgaIna naailayaaM‚ ]KD,I ppiD,yaaoM vaalao [MTaoM vaalao Gar – AaMgana.
" maorI Ct sao Sahr idK rha hO. QauMe AaOr AMQaoro maoM fMsaa‚ ilaqaD,ta huAa. poD,aoM ko pICo khIM – khIM band iKD,ikyaaoM ko SaISaaoM sao raoSanaI idKnao lagaI hO. jagah – jagah jalato caUlhaoM sao QauMe ko TIlao }pr ]z rho hOM. fofD,aoM sao ]ztI KaMsaI ko zsako… maisjadaoM sao Ajaana kI Aavaaja,… imalaaoM ko saayarnaaoM ka Saaor. naIcao sar Jaukae laaoga AMQaorI haotI QaUla BarI saD,kaoM pr GaraoM kao laaOT rho hOM. dIvaar ko saaqa ek pagala gaa rha hO. ek AaOrt ir@Sao pr ASlaIla [Saaro krtI hu[- tailayaaM bajaa rhI hO. saMpora ek haqa maoM saaMp kI ipTarI… dUsaro sao rssaI sao baMQao naovalao kao GasaITta lao jaa rha hO.
Sahr jaaga rha hO. Sahr saaonao jaa rha hO." ³ baaoiQavaRxa‚ pRº 13 ´ 

yah ivaraoQaaBaasaaoM ka saMiQasqala hI ip`yaMvad kI kqaaAaoM ka saart%va hO.

[sa khanaI ka naayak Asagar maoMhdI AtIt ka baOtala kaMQao po ibazae calata ek saccaa ivaËma hO. vah ek saccaa BaartIya mausalamaana hO… vah pIr AlaI ka vaMSaja hO… pIr AlaI jaao ]sa ja,maanao ko ek maSahUr SaahI baavacaI- qao‚ hOrtAMgaoja, trIko sao hunarmaMd… Asagar maoMhdI ]nhIM pIr AlaI kI AaOlaad hOM AaOr ek badnaama galaI maoM Apnao haqaaoM maoM hunar iCpae… raoTI AaOr gaaoSt kI dukana calaato hOM. ivarasat ko naama pr ]nako pasa iksaI kao BaI dr sao BaUKa na laaOTanao ka jaj,baa AaOr jara- – jara- ibaKrtI ]nhIM hOrtjadaM pkvanaaoM kI pak ivaiQayaaoM kI ek iktaba hO .

ikntu vah Aaht hO‚ yah BaaMp kr ik hja,ar vaYaao-M ko [ithasa ko saaqa calato calato ik Aaja BaI vah [sa maulk maoM gaOr hO." mauJasao kha nahIM kBaI iksaI nao‚ pr maOM doK rha hUÐ ik hvaaeM rMga badla rhI hOM. JaNDo BaI rMga badla rho hOM. tumhara savaala‚ maoro ilayao tumharI ifË jaayaja, AaOr hmaddI- BarI hO. m,aOM samaJata hUÐ… [sakI kd` krta hUЂ pr mauJao yah icanta nahIM. maorI proSaanaI ]sa iktaba kI hO‚ jaao pIr AlaI CaoD, gayao hOM. ]sa ivarasat ko K%ma haonao kI hO‚ jaao pIr AlaI CaoD, gayao hOM. ]sa ivarasat ko K%ma haonao kI hO. vah [sa maulk kI thjaIba kI‚ tarIK ka ek ihssaa hO. ]sao maoro saaqa dfna nahIM haonaa caaihyao." ³ baaoiQavaRxa‚ pRº 25´ 

]nakI [sa icanta ka hla inaklaa raSaola ko Aagamana sao. hr doSa kI dula-Ba hao caukI pakivaiQayaaoM pr SaaoQa krtI hu[- pIrAlaI ko baaro maoM khIM sao jaanakr vah jama-naI sao  iksaI maaQyama sao laoKk sao sampk- krtI hO AaOr laoKk Asagar maoMhdI AaOr ]sako baIca kI kD,I ka kama krto hOM. SaarIirk ivaklaaMgata kI caunaaOtI ko saaqa saaqa raSaola jaIvanttapUNa- hO AaOr jaIvana ko p`it Ait ]%saahI va AaSaavaana hO. vah Asagar maoMhdI kI jara- jara- iktaba kao nayaa sva$p dotI hO AaOr ek thjaIba ka KuSanaumaa dula-Ba [ithasa saunahro pnnaaoM maoM jagamagaanao lagata hO.

kqaanak tao yahI hO. pr kqaa ka saraokar kuC AaOr hI hOÑ

]nhaonao iktaba Kaola kr doKI ' Asagar maoMhdI Aa^f [iNDyaa' . pUro rMgaIna pnnao pr ]nakI tsvaIr CpI qaI. ××× vah ApnaI tsvaIr kao dor tk doKto rho. ifr haqa fora ]nhaoMnao ]sa pr. ' Asagar maoMhdI Aa^f [iNDyaa'‚ QaIro QaIro ]nakI AaMKaoM sao AaMsaU bahnao lagao.  ×××××× ifr baudbaudayao — "haM …yao rMiDyaaM maorI hOM‚
…yah naaOTMkI‚ yah zumarI yao gailayaaM maorI hOM. janao Aalama… pIr AlaI… gaMgaa maoro hOM. ××××××yah ja,maIna‚ yah hvaa… tuma saba maoro hao…" vah fUT fUT kr rao rho qao. maOM caupcaap doK rha qaa. SahraoM kI saMiQaroKa pr KD,I ]nakI doh gala gayaI qaI. Andr ka Sahr baahr ka Sahr imala kr ek hao gayaa qaa. ek sa%ya dUsaro ivaraoQaI sa%ya maoM ekakar hao rha qaa. ek vaRhd sa%ya maoro Andr ]tr rha qaa. AaOr maoro sar pr kao[- baaoiQavaRxa BaI nahIM qaa… raSaolaѳ baaoiQavaRxa‚ pRº 39´ 

[sa saMga`h kI tIsarI khanaI ' bahu$ipyaa' khanaI ek laa[-ba`oiryana ko laa[ba`orI AaOr [samaoM rKI hja,araoM bahumaUlya pustkaoM ko p`it saMjaIda saraokar AaOr dImakaoM sao jaUJanao kI khanaI hO. yahaM vah mahja dImakaoM hI sao nahIM jaUJa rha… vah p`SaasakIya tn~ AaOr Saasana p`NaalaI ko baIca ka^laaonaI dr ka^laaonaI dImakaoM kI trh fOlato jaa rhI Akma-Nyata AaOr Ba`YTacaar sao BaI jaUJata hO. [sa khanaI maoM laoKk kI BaaYaa kI vyaMjanaa p`mauK haokr ]BarI hO.

AgalaI khanaI saMga`h kI SaIYa-k khanaI hO ' KrgaaoSa ' . [sa pr maOM vaagaqa-À ma[- 2004 maoM faoksa ko Ant-gat CpI kRYNamaaohna kI iTPpNaI pr pazkaoM ka Qyaana idlaanaa caahUMgaI. " p`oma maoM s~I puÉYa kI prspr WnWrt BaUimaka ek dUsaro kao [stomaala krnao kI hd tk calaI jaatI hO. ' KrgaoaSa' SaIYa-k khanaI maoM AivanaaSa AaOr ]sakI p`oimaka prspr ihMsak kamaukta maoM Barkr jaUJato hOM‚ maanaao dUsaro kI saaMsaaoM kao ivaYaa@t kr donao vaalao 'rot ko saaMp' kI BaUimaka inaBaanao kI haoD, maoM haoM. AMttÁ [sa kSmakSa maoM AivanaISa BaarI pD,ta idKta hO‚ AaOr ApnaI p`oimaka‚ ijasao vah Apnao sahyaaogaI baccao baMTU ko saaqa baatcaIt maoM ' maR%yau' khkr sambaaoiQat krta hO‚ pr havaI hao jaata hO. [sa baIca 'maR%yau' ko poT ka naaiBa vaalaa naMgaa ihssaa baMTU kao KrgaaoSa kI trh lagata hO AaOr vah ]samaoM tllaIna hao jaata hO. ]sako sfurNa kao BaaMp kr maR%yau ]sao p`ao%saaiht krtI hO. baMTU kao lagata hO ik [sa p`Naya klah maoM‚ kBaI Apnao AadSa- rho AivanaISa Baa[- kao pCaD, idyaa hO AaOr Aba 'KrgaaoSa' ]saI ka hao gayaa hO. ]sao @yaa pta ik ' maR%yau' AaOr 'rot ka saaMp' ko baIca jaarI naaTk maoM vah Kud KrgaaoSa kI BaUimaka inaBaanao ko ilayao daiKla huAa hO."
ek baccao ko BaItr haoto yaaOna ivakasa kI ifsalanaI saIiZ,yaaoM ko saMSayapUNa- ]<arao<ar caZ,ava kao manaaoivaSlaoYaNaa%mak trIko sao p`stut krtI hO yah khanaI… ]sa maoM mah%vapUNa- ]%p`ork ka kama krto hO AivanaISa AaOr maR%yau ko baIca ko Aatur p`oma p`saMga AaOr drvaaj,ao kI iJarI sao JaaMMk kr AaOr ApnaI baala samaJa kI saImaa maoM doKo gayao vao AaQao – AQaUro dRSya… jaao ek xaINa saI fMtasaI ko safod KrgaaoSa kao janma doto hOM. baMTU ko AadSa- hOM AivanaISa Baa[-… AaOr ]nako p`oma maoM maaQyama ka kama krto krto vah svayaM mahsaUsa krta hO ik — " maR%yau QaIro QaIro maoro Andr BaI ]tr rhI qaI." ³ KrgaaoSa‚ pRº 72´

 ' dUsara AlaIbaabaa ' ek AÉicakr $p sao [MTrOisTMga ³ Éicakr´ khanaI hO. jaOsaa ik maOM nao hr baar mahsaUsa ikyaa ik ivaraoQaaBaasaaoM ko saMiQasqala ip`yaMvad kI hr khanaI ka saart%va hOM. yah khanaI ek baokrI ko majadUr kI khanaI hO ijasao Acaanak ek zNDI saIlaI saI rat maoM saD,k pr ek naaoTaoM sao Bara psa- imala jaata hO. ]sa rat vah dUsara AlaIbaabaa haota hO. [sa va@t vah daSa-inak BaI hao ]zta hO —" jaIvana kI gaaD,I kao svayaM hI fonaa bahato GaaoD,o kI trh jaut kr KIMcanao AaOr ]saI maoM dUsaraoM kao GaaoD,aoM kI trh jaaot kr KIMcanao maoM baD,a fk- hO." ³ dUsara AlaIbaabaa‚ pRº 83´

[sa va@t ]sakI jaoba maoM pOsaa hO‚ ]saka mana krta hO ik k[- baar rostraMAaoM maoM baahr sao doKa QauMe AaOr Cnna kI Aavaaja, maoM DUbaa saibjayaaoM sao iGara maugaa- Kayaa jaayao. laoKk nao yahaM 'isaja,lar icakna' kI baanagaI naayak ko #yaalaaoM maoM bahut maja,odar trIko sao poSa kI hO. pOsaaoM sao BarI jaoba nao ]sao ihmmat dI hO ik Apnao Apmaana kao mahsaUsa kr sako AaOr vah duinayaa kI ihkart ka ]<ar ihkart sao do sako AaOr vah yahI krta BaI hO jaba vaoTr ]sao GaRNaa sao doKta hO‚ tao vah BaI ihkart sao ]sao GaUrta huAa baahr inakla jaata hO. ek AaOr baar tba‚ jaba vah vaoSyaa ko pasa jaata hO AaOr —

' tIsa $pe.' vah gaura-[- . sakI Aavaaja, maoM ek kD,apna qaa… fTkarnao jaOsaa. ]sanao Apmaainat mahsaUsa ikyaa. ]sanao jaoba sao tIsa Épe inakalakr ja,maIna pr foMk idyao. AaOrt Jauka kr ]zanao lagaI tao ]sao ek trh kI Saaint imalaI. ³ dUsara AlaIbaabaa‚ pRº 84´

' baccao ' khanaI maoM ek baar ifr baalamanaaoiva&ana koa ip`yamvad nao Apnao trIko sao khanaI maoM Zalaa hO. KrgaaoSa khanaI kI trh ptMgabaajaI ka ]llaoK [samaoM hO. ek Ganao gauMqao‚ CtaoM – Ct jauD,o Sahr ko baIca ptMga ko poMca laD,anao ka vah AtItkailak Aanand yaad Aa jaata hO‚ [sa khanaI maoM. Sahr ko puranao maaohllaaoM kI puranaI gailayaaoM maoM imaqak bana kr kpUr hao gae ikssaaoM kI yaad idlaatI hO yah khanaI. hr iksaI ko pICo CUTo iksaI puranao Sahr ko iksaI puranao maahllao kI kao[- galaI AaOr baoZba basaa makana AaOr ]sakI Ct pr TpkI kTI ptMga kao laaOTa laatI hO yah khanaI. 

' baUZ,o ka ]%sava '  ek bahucaica-t‚ ivavaadaspd khanaI hO. yahaM doh hO‚ baOcaOna Aa%maaeM hOM‚ AvaOQata kI hd tk gauja,r gayaa ek jaOivak magar vaOQa p`Sna hO. ijatnaa du$h ivaYaya‚ ]tnaa du$h kqaanak AaOr [na daonaaoM kao caunaaOtI dotI vyaMjak BaaYaa. [sa ek du$h ivaYaya kao ]zayaa jaanaa AaOr ]sa pr safla khanaI rcanaa inassaMdoh kqaakar ko ilayao caunaaOtI saaibat huAa haogaa. [sa khanaI kao pZ,kr inaspMd rh jaanao kI hd tk pazk gauja,rta hO… khIM gahro jaakr AapkI Aa%maa sao nyaaya maaMgatI hO yah khanaI.

[sa khanaI nao saaih%ya jagat maoM BaUcaala AvaSya macaayaa haogaa‚ ikntu @yaa eosao savaalaaoM pr ivaSlaoYaNaa%mak trIko sao saaocanao kI AavaSyakta nahIM hOÆ

maOM nao ek baar [sa khanaI kao sathI taOr pr pZ, kr CaoD, idyaa qaa‚ maOM [sa khanaI kao dubaara nahIM pZ,tI Agar ]nhIM idnaaoM kI ga[- ek rolayaa~a ko daOrana maoM ek vaRwa sao na imalaI haotI ijanhaoMnao dor rat tk maoro saaqa baaMTo‚ Apnao ivavaah ko baad maanaisak $p sao ApnaI Aivakisat baccaI magar SaarIirk $p sao pUNa- ivakisat A%yant saundr laD,kIÀ AaOrt ko saaqa gauja,aro 42 vaYa-‚ ]sakI yaaOna samasyaaAaoM sao jaUJato pla. Da^@Tr Wara ]sa laD,kI ka gaBaa-Saya AaOr ANDaSaya inaklavaa donao kI inamama- salaah AaOr piËyaa.
maOM nao laaOT kr ifr yah khanaI pZ,I AaOr maorI Aa%maa [sa khanaI ko p`it ek nyaayaBarI saaoca Apnaa sakI. yah khanaI ek maanaisak $p sao ivaklaaMga naaOjavaana baccao AaOr ]sakI maaM kI khanaI hO. yahaM ]nakI samsyaaeMoM‚ ]nako duKaoM ko baIca ]Baro doh ko jaOivak p`Sna hOM. maanaisak $p sao ivaklaaMga laD,ko kI dOihk ]<aojanaa AaOr ]sakI saMtuYTI ka savaala ]sakI maaM ko Aagao KD,a hO. yah dOihk saMtuYTI baccao ka ekmaa~ Aa*laad hO jaao maaM ]sako inaspMd caohro pr phlaI baar doKtI hO jaba vah ]sakI doh kao saaf kr rhI haotI hO. ]sao ]sako svagaI-ya pit ko Da^@Tr ima~ kI trf sao AaSvaasana imalata hO ik [samaoM kuC BaI galat nahIM hO Agar yah baccao kao p`sanna va svasqa kr sako. AnttÁ papbaaoQa ko tht ]sanao Aa%mah%yaa kr laI…@yaaoMik ]sao Ahsaasa huAa ik ]sanao baccao ko bahanao Kud BaI qaaoD,a saa sauK ilayaa hO.

[sa khanaI maoM samaaja‚ naOitkta ko saD,o – galao inayamaaoM pr Da^@Tr AaOr samaaiQalaoK ilaKnao vaalao baUZ,o ko maaQyama sao kTaxa ikyaa gayaa hO.
" yah saba AaOrt ko ilayao ]saI trh qaa jaOsao ]saka sar dd- krnao pr vah sar dbaa dotI qaI yaa said-yaaoM maoM saUKI Kala pr tola mala dotI qaI yaa paMvaaoM maoM saUjana haonao pr saoMk dotI qaI. ]na xaNaaoM maoM eosaI hI saamaanya‚ saaQaarNa Baavanaa sao ]sanao vah saba ikyaa. vah xaNa inakla jaanao ko baad Bayaanak pap baaoQa sao Bar ga[- qaI vah. ]saI Baya sao kaMptI vah maoro pasa Aa[- qaI. jaao kuC ]sanao ikyaa vah @yaa qaaÆ @yaaoM qaaÆ iktnaa AavaSyak qaaÆ naOitkta… Qama-… piva~ta ko caabaukaoM sao DrI kaMptI hu[- tba vah ek maaM qaI."³ baUZ,o ka ]%sava‚ pRº109´

" maaM haonaa AaOrt kao [-Svar%va kI mahanata tk phuMcaa dota hO. ]sao bahut baD,a Aqa-… saaqa-kta AaOr SaaMit dota hO. pu~ ko zIk haonao kI saMBaavanaa maa~ nao ]sao Ad\Baut ivaSvaasa‚ dRZ,ta AaOr Saaint sao Bar idyaa qaa." ³ baUZ,o ka ]%sava‚ pRº109´

samaaiQa laoK ilaKnao vaalao baUZ,o ko maaQyama sao laoKk nao jaIvana ko nayao dSa-naaoM kI vyaa#yaa kI hO jagah – jagah pr. khnao kao yah baUZ,a bahut ATpTa hO‚ BaunaI iCpkilayaaoM ko masaalaodar caUrNa kao Kakr naSaa krta hO‚ ATpTo samaaiQa laoK ilaKta hO‚ ATpTI dSaa maoM rhta hO. ]sakI ekmaa~ mah%vaakaMxaa hO saMsaar kI sabasao Alaga ATpTI maR%yau kI taik vah ]sa pr samaaiQa laoK ilaK sako — eosao maoM ]saka ima~ Da^@Tr [sa s~I kI Aa%mah%yaa ko baad ]sa baUZ,o kao baulaata hO. pUra ikssaa batata hO. baUZ,a khta hO — " jaanato hao Da^@Tr‚ jaba BaI khIM kuC badlata hO tao sabasao phlao ]sa badlaava ka sapnaa doKnao vaalaI kuC jaaoD,I AaMKoM haotI hOM. vah [tnaI hI AkolaI haotI hOM. hr SauÉAat eosao hI haotI hO. BaID, ifr ]sako pICo calatI hO. kuC BaI badlanao ko ilayao yah sapnaa ja,$rI hO. AaOr ]tnaa hI ja,$rI hO [sa sapnao kao rKnao ko ilayao‚ palanao ko ilayao ek Gar. Kulaa‚ hvaadar‚ camaktI AaMKaoM ka. Anajaanao maoM‚ Apnao pu~ maaoh ko karNa vah AaOrt hja,araoM laaKaoM baccaaoM ko ilayao ek sapnaa CaoD, gayaI hO. Asamaqa-‚ Aivakisat baccaaoM ko ilayao nayaa AakaSa…jaIvana ka nayaa spSa-.××××××
 tuma zIk khto qao. yah samaaiQa laoK kao[- nahIM ilaK sakta isavaaya maoro. yaa Saayad maOM BaI nahIM. [samaoM sabakuC haonaa caaihyao. ]sa AaOrt ka sampUNa- jaIvana … maR%yau kI saaqa-kta. ]sako kaya- ka samaqa-na… ]sakI naOitkta‚ AaOica%ya‚ saaqa-kta ka ]d\GaaoYa. pUro samaaja ko ilayao ek naMgaa savaala. eosao baccaaoM ko janak kI Aa%maa kI pID,a. duinayaa ka sabasao Ad\Baut samaaiQa laoK haogaa yah.³ baUZ,o ka ]%sava‚ pRº114´"

ip`yaMvad kI khainayaaM @yaa mahja BaUcaala ]zatI hOMÆ savaala nahIMÆ  vao Zor saaro savaala ]zatI hOM‚ BaUcaala vao laaoga ]zato hOM ‚jaao [na savaalaaoM pr AaMK maUMd laonaa caahto hOM. ifr BaI yah saca hO ik ip`yaMvad kI laaokip`yata‚
svaIkaya-ta pazkaoM nao Kud tya kI hO na ik ihndI saaih%ya kI SaIYa- pi~kaAaoM ko sampadkaoM nao.

[sa saMga`h kI Anya ]llaoKnaIya khainayaaoMM maoM Saaimala hOM ' ]sa rat kI vaYaa- maoM ' tqaa ' TOrosa pr saonaanaayak' AaOr rot. ' ]sa rat kI vaYaa- maoM ' khanaI eosao yauvak AaOr yauvatI kI khanaI hO… jaao daonaaoM ApnaI – ApnaI trh ko carma sauK ko ilayao ek – ek yaaojanaa banaato hOM… AaOr jaanao Anajaanao dUsaro kI yaaojanaa ka Anaugamana krto hOM. yahaM laD,kI carmasauK saca hI maoM doh sao bahut }pr inatant maanaisak hO…]saka sfurNa‚ ]sakI ]<aojanaa ka kark doh nahIM‚ doh sauK nahIM ]sasao ]pjaa ek KUbasaUrt Baava hO jaao yauvak ko caohro pr hO… iksaI dula-Ba saI laganao vaalaI vastu kao sahja hI haisala ³bakaOla laoKk ' hstgat'´ kr laonao ka Baava hO. 

' TOrosa pr saonaanaayak ' ek AcCI khanaI hO. yah ek eosao saMGaYa-SaIla vyavasaayaI yauvak kI ijasanao vyavasaaya maoM hr trh kI }Mca – naIca AaOr daMva poMca doKo hOM AaOr kanaUna ko haqaaoM baar baar haro ek vakIla kI khanaI hO. daonaaoM kI ija,ndgaI sao ApnaI laD,a[- hO… AaOr [sa laD,a[- sao ]pjao sat ka Apnaa Apnaa dSa-na hO.  [sa khanaI maoM laoKk ka inaÁSaoYa haota AaOVaoigak Sahr ek Alaga trh sao jaIivat hO… 

' rot' khanaI p`oma ka ABaUtpUva-‚ doh sao ivalaga ek AnaUza dSa-na p`stut krtI hO. [sa khanaI kao maOM 'ja,Ima' kI khanaI khUM tao j,yaada ]pyau@t hO. yah ek KUbasaUrt inama-ma p`omakqaa hO.
yah ek baUZ,o‚ fTohala laoKk kI p`oma ko ]<ar kI lambaI p`tIxaa kI vyaqaa kqaa hO‚ saaqa hI [sako naopqya maoM hO Dak ivaBaaga kI laaprvaahI sao k[- dSakaoM baad phuMcaa ek poasTkaD-.

" ptJar maoM BaI sapnao saca haoto hOM Aakr doK laao.… jaIma "³ rot pRº 165´

jaIma ek kaolaaja saa caohra hO. jaao ik laoKk kI cair~ica~Na kI ivaSaoYata hO‚ saaMsa laoto hue kaolaajaÑ
baramado maoM kusaI- pr baOzo‚ QaIro – QaIro JaUlato hue ]nhaoMnao Ailaf‚ bao‚ po yaad krnaa SauÉ kr idyaa. ×××××× ]nhoM ibastr pr igarI hu[- ek AaMK idKa[- dI‚ kalao baalaaoM sao iGarI… ]nhoM doKtI hu[-.qaaoD,I dor baad ' jaIma' tk phuMcanao pr ]nhaoMnao ifr isar ]zayaa. AaMK vaOsaI hI qaI …]saI trh ibastr pr pD,I hu[-. kmaro ko Andr qaaoD,I qaaoD,I raoSanaI hao rhI qaI. [sa baar Ék kr doKa ]nhaoMnao. AaMK maoM jaIvana qaa… plak qaI … AaOr vah ija,nda qaI. saaMsa laotI hu[- … kalaI… ibalakula kalao ]laJao baalaaoM sao iGarI.

jaIma kI yah khanaI ptJaD, ko KuSanaumaa rMgaaoM sao SauÉ haokr ptJaD, pr hI K%ma hao gayaI. ptJar hI ko haqaaoM h%yaa hao ga[- ]sakI. ]sakI ek lambaI p`tIxaa [sa ptJar sao jauD,I qaI. AnakaoM ptJaraoM ko baad ]sao GaRNaa hao gayaI qaI ptJaraoM sao. pcaasa saala lambaa ek SaapÑ

ip`yavaMd kI khainayaaM lambao samaya tk Apnao sammaaohna sao baahr nahIM inaklanao dotIM. baar baar laaOTa laatI hOM Aapkao… na[- vyaa#yaaAaoM… nayao Aqaao-M kI CUTI prt Kaojanao kao.

[sa saMga`h khainayaaoM maoM mauJao ek hI baat AjaIba lagatI hO AaOr Aama BaI ik ]nakI khainayaaoM maoM BaTkto hue k[- baar ek baUZ,a ekakI fTohala laoKk imala jaata hO‚ jaao ik baD,o ka^lar vaalaa laaMga kaoT phnata hO‚ sastI Saraba pIta hO… Saaorbaa AaOr DbalaraoTI Kata hOÑ
kula imalaa kr ' KrgaaoSa ' kI ek bahut AcCa‚ pznaIya bailk saMga`hNaIya khanaI saMga`h hO.

manaIYaa kulaEaoYz
isatmbar 28‚ 2004